If there is one thing that makes you appreciate solid food… it’s a colonoscopy prep!
I’m on round 2, it’s 1:00am and I’m about to drink this horrid drink for the next hour. The drink was terrible the first round, it’s even worse now.
I’ve been binge watching “Suits” all night on Amazon Prime. I don’t even think the show is that interesting, but I don’t think I’m really paying attention. I’m half in the zone and half really far away.
I have been blessed with drugs that worked and a healthy body for three and a half years. I know some aren’t lucky enough to see a remission that long. To be honest, I don’t even know if what I am experiencing is a flare or some crazy drug reaction.
Such is the life as it manifests, or that’s what a dermatologist told me today. There are the same symptoms for so many different issues and no way of telling what is going on. I struggled for four years to find answers and I thought I had found my answer.
It is funny how life manifests. I’ve come to believe that the people you need in your life will find you.
I’m spent some time thinking lately about the people in our lives and the lives we take and what if we didn’t cross paths… but oh, what if we did.
Follow me on this for a bit…
When I was seven years old, I went in a camper with seven other people and we drove to Disney. As little as I remember (since I was only seven) it is one of my most memorable trips and one of the stories I love to tell.
Last month, the friend that I took this trip with passed away from breast cancer at the age of 29. And while we did not know each other in recent years, he impact of my life will remain with me forever.
When I was in second grade I lived in New Hampshire. In a class with one of my all time favorite teachers, Mrs. Jones, I made friends with Alison. Unfortunately I moved away and we lost contact.
Three years ago I was diagnosed with Crohn’s disease and an article ran in Fitness magazine that Alison has Crohn’s too. We reconnected and today she is one of strength heroes. Her positive attitude and love of life inspires me every day. Read her story here;
Nearly six weeks ago, I was being a creeper on Twitter and saw Alison tweeting with Tory. I had no idea who Tory was but for some reason I clicked on her name and read her website and signed up for her newsletter. Now she helps me each week in a way that I could have never expected.
When I was in high school, I spent the majority of my free time with a group of people called NGCC youth group. They were my life, we did everything together. It didn’t matter that we were in different grades or in different social circles when we were together we were all the best of friends.
Last month, when one of leaders passed away, it brought us all together again. It took twelve years, but we were that same tight knit group sitting on my back deck sharing memories and stories of where life took us. A great reminder of the impact we all had on each other.
My freshman year of college I was absolutely terrified of the drinking habits of my roommate. Three weeks into college I transferred rooms and by the end of the year was completely unsure if college was for me. The only friend I had managed to make was not coming back and I had no idea what I was going to do. I signed myself up for a single dorm sophomore year.
I was placed in a dorm building that introduced me to my best friends, ladies I have known for over a decade now. They are there when the wine needs to be poured, or the phone call needs to be made after the really terrible date. They share the good moments and the bad moments and we celebrate life together.
I got my first internship at an art gallery that, ten years later, I am still able to do freelance work for. This internship allowed me to stay in Newport for the summers and I lived on my own for the first time. It also allowed me to stand on my own two feet after having my heart broken more than I ever thought it was possible.
Two years into my first real job, I got a new boss. To say that Toni changed my life is an understatement. She gave me courage and showed me how to manage a team of people when I have no experience. She has taught me things, to this day, I carry with me in my work.
And now two years after being with my current job, I have become best friends with someone I have known much longer than we have been friends. Our paths have probably crossed a thousand times before we were seated a desks next to each other and now I couldn’t imagine life with Andrea.
I have fallen in love with several men in my life. Each one shaping me a bit more than the last. And this most recent love, has done more for my health than even I think I give him credit for. David, you have open my eyes into a world of holisitic healing that many have tried before but there was something about the way you said it, or the time that you entered my life, that made me listen. And if nothing else you made me believe I could do it myself.
It’s funny how life works. It puts people in your life… maybe not exactly when you need them but life introduces you so when you do need them, you know who to call. I’m sure are there a few people that haven’t been mentioned, but it’s almost 2am, this drink is now making me gag and I’m typing from the bathroom. (Too many details?!)
I want to take this moment to thank each and every one of you that has traveled on this journey with me.
This week has been tough, and I’m feeling more needy than usual. Because what else do you want when you are uncomfortable than to be comfortable? I don’t know what tomorrow’s colonoscopy will bring, news I will find a way to deal with I’m sure.
This is the journey I am on and while each day I don’t always understand why this journey has to be mine, I trust that this my journey.